Lack of Time or...

I just feel like my head will explode. I have all this ridiculous anger towards school. I am frustrated with my classes and how much time they are taking up. I just keep thinking don't blow it now. I have four As and a C. I am not even a grades freak or anything but I figure since I have As I should try to keep them. It is all for not though because I have way too much to read. And I like to read. One of those people who could read a book in a day if they were into it. But I miss my freedom and my kid and my fiancee. We have no money, the holidays are coming up and I am thinking why did I think school was a good idea. As much as I try I am just a night owl. Everytime I get myself conditioned to go to bed at 1am because of a job or something as soon as I get a break I am up until 3 or 4. I can't help it. Idon't even want to be up late anymore. I have these dreams of getting up at 7am and enjoying the peace and having a bunch of things accoplished by noon. So do I really have a lack of time or a lack of discipline? Plus the wedding crap is freaking me out. I want to lose the baby weight which continues to plague me for the last two years and actually have time to plan things well. I have really considered taking off next semester to plan but that would lead to a whole bunch of other problems. Maybe I'll just go take a hot shower.