It's getting heavier...

So I have had an abnormal test which lead to some concern by my doctor. Apparently I have some "abnormalities" and thos abnormalities are in the "high risk" category for cancer. So I have another procedure done which is incredibly uncomfortable and a bit painful. A lovely biopsy. Now I wait a week to find out if I have cancer.

Now don't go getting all nutty. It is a more rare cancer and more treatable one if caught early. However it may affect my ability to carry a pregnancy which is really upsetting me. I have been a bit in denial about what I have been told. I have known about it since January and of course thought there wasn't really anything wrong. I can't help but have visions of a bald sickly person wasting away and never getting to see her daughter grow up. That is a bit of an over reaction. Hey with 1 in 4 people getting cancer should I really be surprised to be a candidate?

Burning Out

So yeah, I feel I may be a bit burned out. I have officially given myself chronic stomach problems according to my doctor. She feels things will improve when school ends.

Anyway I have just finished putting together an educational group on burn out for those in the human service field. I have to present it on Thursday. I have watched the film that my other exam is based on but have yet to actually write it. I completed the freaking 20 page jack ass busy work assignment by the sexual harrassser professor. I still have to read a book and write a ten page paper analyzing the policies within it, send out my 100 surveys for the consumer satisfaction of the Life Skills Program for the study I am conducting, research and analyze a bill..we chose H1459...for a 200 project and I can't even go on.

In wedding news, Julie, Les and I went bridesmaid dress shopping. It was way fun except for one minor mini breakdown. We have it narrowed to 5 dresses. I have finally officially chosen colors. I booked a baker. I had a brief conversation with a seamstress about revamping my dress. Steven and I met with our priest and did some paperwork. Still trying to figure out transportation, flowers, decor, gifts, liquor, etc. Progress has been made. I think the stress is making me eat less. That could be good.

Ridiculousness

Ok so everytime I write it is the same thing and probably will be for two more months. I just finished a take home social welfare and policy exam. I feel like a loser because I did not realize how much I didn't know about the basic running of the American government. Through the entire exam I couldn't get the Schoolhouse Rock "I am just a bil sitting on Capital Hill..." thing out of my nead.

Rented Just Like Heaven, Elizabethtown and Walk the Line. I am sure these are old news to some but for us adult learner mothers they are new.
Just Like Heaven..cute but will never rent again. Good Saturday morning cleaning background.
Elizabethtown...started out a bit slow but got very funny and meaningful by the middle and even better at the end.
Walk the Line...not quite what I expected but I loved it. Of course I grew up listening to Johnny Cash and the like on the eight track of my father's pick up. Great story, great love affair, just pretty darn great. Bonus: Reese Witherspoon...she has been my favorite for a few years now.

I am feeling like I want to be southern again.

Bad news: My opportunity to work in London for 6 months after graduation is probably a no go unless Steven quits his job. We both want to go and take Ava but he cannot get a leave of absense from his position with those circumstances. I am still working on it. It is such a good opportunity.